Eighteen year old Jay Stevenson is living a horrible nightmare.
Two years ago, she had the world in the palm of her hand, but in one moment, it was ruined. Secrets, lies, and the worst imaginable betrayal haunt her new reality. Burying her problems under a cold façade seems to be the only way to cope until it all catches up with her. Soon, she loses control of the lonely world she built around her, and the past, present, and future collide.
Three guys are there when it all comes crashing down: JT, the perfect boyfriend she never wanted to give up; Rhye, the local bad boy “rock star” who made her forget the past; and Kane, the funny and sweet tattooed bartender who wants her future.
Secrets must be kept. Choices must be made. Is it possible to move forward while still chained to the wicked vices of the past?
Recommended for readers 17+ due to sexual situations, violence, and language.
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James Stevenson (aka Jay) used to have it all. She was once the school sweetheart, everyone loved her and she had the perfect life, until that one devastating day that ruined everything. Now it’s her senior year in high school and everyone thinks she’s a stuck up bitch, but that’s part of the plan to push everyone away – her best friends, her longtime boyfriend, her parents – everyone, in an effort to cut down on the pain she will cause them all when she ends it. That’s the only way she sees out of this life and away from the nightmares, she just has to find the right time.
Despite all of this, Jay still has not one, not two, but THREE guys that are head over heels in love with her, and she still cares for each one of them in their own way. First, we have JT – her first boyfriend and the love of her life. He promised her in kindergarten that he would marry her someday, and that was the plan, until THAT day. She lied and told him there was someone else and broke up with him suddenly, but she still loves him and he never got over her, it almost ruined him. He won’t give up on her and he is determined to find out what really happened.
Next, there’s Rhye, her ex-friend-with-benefits, until he cheated on her. He’s the typical bad boy in a rock band, and not only was he sexy, but he offered her an escape with sex and drugs. Despite the bad-boy persona, he actually cares for Jay and is truly sorry about what he did, and he will do anything to keep her safe. He still wants Jay, and she doesn’t want to like him, but he’s hard to resist.
Finally, there’s Kane, the new drop-dead-gorgeous, tatted up bartender at Jay’s favorite bar. At first he comes across as super cocky, but the more she talks to him, the more she likes him. After THAT day, Jay has been known for having a few one night stands, and normally she’d go for that with Kane, but for some reason she feels one night wouldn’t be enough with him. She’s never felt the pull for anyone else that she feels for him. He knows she’s hiding something and he will be there for her when she finally decides to tell.
So, the obvious question would be which one does she choose – her first love that she never really stopped loving, the bad boy who could make her forget everything, or the guy who makes her face everything and move on, start fresh? But the deeper questions are what is the secret Jay is hiding from everyone? Can she get past it for love? Who is leaving the mysterious notes on her car everyday at school? She doesn’t want anyone to know what really happened, they wouldn’t believe her anyway. Besides, what’s in the past is in the past. As long as it stays there, it can’t get any worse. Right?
I don’t even know what to say about this story, I was blown away. There is a lot more to it than the love triangle (or square?), but I can’t really say much else without giving something away. As others have said, I never saw that ending coming in a million years, and I was completely floored. This book did exactly what the title says…it ruined me…and I can’t wait to read more.
About the Author
About me…… I love angst….I thrive on it, but only the fictional kind. I adore a story that grips the reader from the beginning and doesn’t let go…EVER. I’m an avid reader who just recently discovered my love of writing. My favorite things in life include my three wild & crazy kids, Reese’s Pieces, and every genre of music. Please come find me @ nicolereedbooks.com or www.facebook.com/nicolereedauthor